You can't Imagine what I have been through.

Even I forget sometimes..  


But what I have lived through, let's say.. it all started when I was 17.  A man, that I knew well enough. WHen I was a child I had a crush on him, even though as a child. I was viewed as annoying to him. However from annoying to Hot I became. He gained a sudden interest in me, and I in him. We started a game. Yes, a game. We had points involved. I was a very shy girl, and he was a very sexual man. Of course, he didn't need me. He had a wife and child, although at the time this game was started. They weren't married. He even tried to stop for her, but he really wanted me. We never had sex, until I was 18.

   He was, or is a very attractive man. I know he still is, but I would rather say was since I am no longer involved with him. I think about him, he is a man I could trust with my life.  He is my mentor, no matter what he didn't influence me. He merely released me from my fears of rape and let my chains slacken and fall.

You may think he raped me, but he didn't. Although, there was a lot of blood. It took us 15+ times to finally do it, on separate occasions, I am really tight. I still am, and I believe I will always be. So maximum tightness, equals lots of blood. He took very good care of me throughout the whole process.

We cleaned up rather well and quickly. . . there was no space or time for mistakes. We kissed passionately, we didn't love each other in that way. But I can tell you, it would have been if consequences were different.

The Zoo. What wonderful memories I have at the zoo, it's a great thing let me tell you.

Let's take a day at the ZOO.


Of Course,  all good things must come to an end. But that only lasted a little while and then I cheated on my ex boyfriend.. That military abuser of women bonehead. . I am so glad..Why?

Well that military bonehead thought I lost my virginity to him. HA!!! I took his virginity and it's under my belt. This wild card makes me smile inside.

BUT that is a story for another time. . .


Jelly Bean

White

A sign of purity.

I want those of you to know. That what I write here is true. Everything. I do not lie here. Why? Cause I can afford the truth through this anonymity. What I confess, is based on my own actions as well as others. Only, that what I confess directly involves me. This is not a literary work. If you are scared to continue. Then stop reading.

But these things happened, whether anyone likes it or not.