After that military douche ...

well, I went around.

Like I cheated on him only with my first. Because well, I kinda knew he was an asshole and didn't deserve me. He broke it off and although I cried. I was very fucking relieved. I don't have to deal with his shit anymore.

Now because I was single, I could have as much fun as I wanted. I hung around with this guy who looked like JD and Conan O'brien's love child.  SO I call him JB. He was much older than me, but not the oldest. I  must say that I wasn't that attracted to him enough to be his girlfriend. He asked me to be his girlfriend, and I was like 'okay?'

I didn't want to be at all.

I was recently single.. But I gave him two weeks.. Ugh.. the thought of him disgusts me now ( he had really bad tasting cum).

But he wasn't a bad guy.. I still cheated on him, because of a guy that I had met before him. Let's call him MetroGel. Cause he always cared what he looked like and gelled his hair to high hell so when he sweated it really came down. He brought out the wild side of me ( I love biting).  But he was a virgin, I took it.. Naturally.  However then it became long distance. So I said if in two weeks you aren't back..I can't wait anymore.
He wasn't back in two weeks.
Now he acts as if I broke his heart.

I don't feel bad. He was a complaining bitch. We would go to a club and he wouldn't want to dance. HE ACTUALLY FUCKING TOLD ME, "If you go and dance, I'm leaving."

Party Pooper.

You know what... MetroGelPooper.  Fucking bitch.


Anyways, there was this other guy .. Let's call him Hutt. He actually spoke huttese and he was chunky.  He didn't have a condom and I wasn't about to take the morning after pill or anything so He just camed in my mouth.. Yuck..  Like I don't mind cum. but.. it was really salty bad.


Also there was my other confidant ( other than my first, he is also older than my first.), he and I are still friends. I seduced him. Quite easily, I might add.

Seducing men is what I am good at.  My lures are innocence, intelligence and beauty.

I would have dated him, but the thing is he was in love with  a woman.. she had died. I would never want to replace her, so I made him think I only wanted sex. Why?

It's easier to not get that close to care about someone. I already cared enough for him to call him confidant, and although I wouldn't have minded something more. It's just one of those things. It's funny though that nobody knows what has gone on between us.

Now,  I haven't had sex with any other since my Prince has  shown up.

Yes my Prince :)

I do have one.

He is kind and his body knows my body. I don't know how... but he knows it.

I even told him who my first was..

I didn't tell him about my confidant though. THAT would be weird. I'll explain more. I just wanted you guys to be up to date.

The Abuse of the Military

For some reason there was a military guy I met, and now I feel like they do this to everyone.

HE PHYSICALLY HURT ME!

He would twist my arm while pushing my thumb down, he's an eagle scout... I guess he gets a merit badge for abusing his girlfriend.  He would do that in front of people too, he would take something that belonged to me and when I tried to get it back he would do that and to Justify it, "You shouldn't try to grab what isn't yours."

Eh, what a insane relationship... He was weird, like he actually thought I was the stalker. Cause me and my friend like driving around I noticed one time on the gps that I was 2 miles away from his house. I told him cause I had recently been accused of not opening up of not sharing of anything even emotions. . . . . . . . .
I Seriously could not believe that he was accusing me of stalking HIM!!!!
 After he did that, those last two weeks of the relationship killed me.
Reminiscing...  about how small his dick was.
It makes me laugh cause he thought it was the biggest thing ever, and I had to pretend like it was the first I ever seen. So I had to pretend it  was as big as he said it was.


LET ME SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT


I have always, always been good at anything sexual. I have never needed training. Even my first was surprised by how great I am at head, hand.. Oh and 5 seconds in me is how fast you want to cum... You will need the sexual prowess to MAKE YOURSELF LAST.

So let me tell you something about military men, they go Limp.

Their whole body goes limp, they make this ugly face. . . and expect you to do everything.

I could but I need something to work with.. and he wasn't doing a damn thing.

TWICE. The number of times we had sex... actually more like one and a half.
... or not even a half.. Cause the "first" time was interrupted.. ( after having bled so much with my first.. I was able to act out bleeding again)

What is hilarious is that he thought of me as a bad liar. When... I was lying to him the whole time.

That is the funniest.. he told me that if I ever cheated on him that it would be over.
I cheated on him.. during those two months and something days that me and him were dating.

He made me feel bad, I felt better knowing that I cheated on him and lied to him and he never caught me.
     After all, how else was I going to have fun?

He was broke, he verbally and physically abused me. I didn't tell anyone I expected them to say something... when he did it in front of them.

I'm glad I cheated on him with my first, see this is what happens when you are an extremely awful boyfriend. Glad, I have his virginity under my belt.

He just really pisses me off.. I wish I could have punched him  too or something drastic.

JELLY BEAN

You can't Imagine what I have been through.

Even I forget sometimes..  


But what I have lived through, let's say.. it all started when I was 17.  A man, that I knew well enough. WHen I was a child I had a crush on him, even though as a child. I was viewed as annoying to him. However from annoying to Hot I became. He gained a sudden interest in me, and I in him. We started a game. Yes, a game. We had points involved. I was a very shy girl, and he was a very sexual man. Of course, he didn't need me. He had a wife and child, although at the time this game was started. They weren't married. He even tried to stop for her, but he really wanted me. We never had sex, until I was 18.

   He was, or is a very attractive man. I know he still is, but I would rather say was since I am no longer involved with him. I think about him, he is a man I could trust with my life.  He is my mentor, no matter what he didn't influence me. He merely released me from my fears of rape and let my chains slacken and fall.

You may think he raped me, but he didn't. Although, there was a lot of blood. It took us 15+ times to finally do it, on separate occasions, I am really tight. I still am, and I believe I will always be. So maximum tightness, equals lots of blood. He took very good care of me throughout the whole process.

We cleaned up rather well and quickly. . . there was no space or time for mistakes. We kissed passionately, we didn't love each other in that way. But I can tell you, it would have been if consequences were different.

The Zoo. What wonderful memories I have at the zoo, it's a great thing let me tell you.

Let's take a day at the ZOO.


Of Course,  all good things must come to an end. But that only lasted a little while and then I cheated on my ex boyfriend.. That military abuser of women bonehead. . I am so glad..Why?

Well that military bonehead thought I lost my virginity to him. HA!!! I took his virginity and it's under my belt. This wild card makes me smile inside.

BUT that is a story for another time. . .


Jelly Bean

White

A sign of purity.

I want those of you to know. That what I write here is true. Everything. I do not lie here. Why? Cause I can afford the truth through this anonymity. What I confess, is based on my own actions as well as others. Only, that what I confess directly involves me. This is not a literary work. If you are scared to continue. Then stop reading.

But these things happened, whether anyone likes it or not.